Have you ever had that muzzy feeling? And I mean muzzy like driving down a dark alley at night or holding a lit firework and not letting go. People and animals can usually suspect when something is muzzy...like the turtle on that movie Over the Hedge, his tail tingled. I imagine a librarian gets muzzy when people put books in the wrong spot or a fireman snoozing through the alarm of an emergency case at 3am. Muzzy for me consists of having a numb/indifferent feeling. Friday I experienced this. That whole day I could just tell something was not right and I was in this weird funk. Like a belly dancer, I needed to shake this funk away. So to help me, my friend Mandie and I went on a girls night to Idaho Falls for a free movie! We went to see THE LORAX! Which was alright. Mandie got me some 3-D glasses though :) as well as for herself! And not to mention the indulgent mix that we pigged out on. Coming home from IF was where the muzziness soaked in. We got kinda lost in Ammon and I must say, driving in parts of unfamiliar roads in IF is like sticking your hand in a small hole in a wall full of centipedes. But after the lady with two teeth told us directions we were on our way! So. You may ask: "Alyssa, did the muzziness stop?" Well my friend, it did not...not at all. We're literally a mile away from home when this patch of ice sneaks up on my car like a ninja and makes my car spin uncontrollably! We were on a curve and I was going the speed limit...and of course we were sober. So we're spinning on this ice and mandie is screaming for her life. She pulls the steering-wheel to the right and that's probably why we're still alive. If mandie hadn't done that, we would've been thrown maliciously in a ditch. We ended up in a fence with a broken mailbox which helped stopped the havoc. I cannot tell you just how relieved I was to be put there...of course I didn't ask to slip on ice in the first place. But the fact that the car stopped, no one was hurt, and no on coming car came was a miracle. I don't even know how we ended up by the fence but God or a guardian angel was def with us. Shortly, some random people came to the rescue to help us out and calmed our nerves...they came out of no where...another blessing. My granmda couldn't have been happier to see my car drive in the driveway. So did the muzziness stop? Well, my life is full of muzzy experiences but this one tops it.
I have a new addiction(s) with food....I strongly suggest you try these!
So perfect. So delectable.
To those reading this who feel worried, alone, or insecure-there's no need to feel like that. I know how you feel. The situation may have been different but I know that feeling of disappointment, regret, and sadness. Even though I try my best to help the pain, I know my Savior Jesus Christ is the one person who can take that pain away. I am so grateful for the Atonement he did through love for us and for His Heavenly Father. I have learned through my short 19 year old life that the Atonement is not just to take away sins, but to help cover illness and those feelings of insecurity, sadness, disappointment, etc. There was a time in my life where I was searching for happiness but I was a fool to do that....the happiness was right in front of my face the whole time. The happiness was the gospel of Jesus Christ. I cannot describe to you just how happy I feel from God's love, the Atonement, and my family. You might smirk and say, "Lyss, you've had it easy." Well my friend, on the contrary, this journey has been strenuous, burdensome, and a test of strength. The gospel was never meant to be easy and I am grateful it hasn't been easy for me; I never would've been able to experience the happiness.
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